Allure

Allure

May 29, 2019

Carrie Dickason's visual art "Allure" appears in Issue No. 51: Consume.

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Dying to Love

Dying to Love

May 28, 2019

He pointed to the facts: I lived in a nice condominium on a nice island a ferry ride away from a nice city where my nice partner worked at a nice job. I pointed to my feelings: My nice life was killing me.

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Ode to Temple Crowds

Ode to Temple Crowds

May 22, 2019

Uma Menon's poem "Ode to Temple Crowds" appears in Issue No. 51: Consume.

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Two Words I Didn't Know

Two Words I Didn't Know

May 16, 2019

I love that idea, that we are pilgrims on a journey through time. I love that we humans try so hard to find our places on that long road. And I love that you and I are ineffable, numinous pieces of some great mystery we will never fully understand.

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Now

Now

May 14, 2019

I wake with a kind of jolt in my stomach: I know where I am, but I do not know when I am. When in time am I? Are my children both sleeping in the other room? Will I hear their small feet pattering on the floor as they come in to wake me? Will they tumble into bed with Eric and me?

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Meditation: Our Modern Prayer

Meditation: Our Modern Prayer

May 09, 2019

As a witness of thought, it struck me deeply that I must be something much more than what had been running through my mind. I was so identified with thinking that I truly mistook thought for who I was.

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On Constructive Anger

On Constructive Anger

May 07, 2019

Being Black and being a woman, I have a complicated relationship with anger. Sometimes I am reluctant to show anger, irritation, or frustration for fear of being labeled an “Angry Black Woman”...Unfortunately, I am frequently angry when existing in most spaces.

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Death Lodge

Death Lodge

May 02, 2019

Pretty much all I did in the Death Lodge was cry, ugly cry. When my mother came to the Death Lodge, I saw at last how she had been broken by life...I saw how much she loved me, even when she hurt me. 

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Yet I Hated You

Yet I Hated You

April 30, 2019

I tried and I have failed. I have failed and tried. I have struggled to seek and know a different place. I did not want to die but I wanted to give up.

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Sympathetic Joy: The Other Face of Empathy

Sympathetic Joy: The Other Face of Empathy

April 25, 2019

The secret beauty of sympathetic joy is that it allows a sort of emotionally free riding: you do not have to wait for joy. Look around, and let others’ good fortune become your own.

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A Call to Prayer

A Call to Prayer

April 23, 2019

It was clear they didn’t need me or my prayers that day. But I needed to be there, kneeling and weeping in that sighing space between words...I may have looked the part but...my tongue didn’t know the prayers.

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On Expansion

On Expansion

April 18, 2019

I know the anxiety of willing myself not to molt, not to shed the protective layer of belief that once preserved me. It's not safe to let go of this, I've thought. This is the only right place to be...I talk to God and remember only one of us is afraid of the dark.

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On Winning the Kalos Art Prize

On Winning the Kalos Art Prize

April 16, 2019

Through my current series Seen and Unseen, I hope to create a quiet space for contemplation, allowing viewers to reflect upon the world that we have created and the future that we must sustain. The most pristine and remote parts of the planet are touched by the actions that we all have taken, and that we continue to take.

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Vial: A Product Review

Vial: A Product Review

April 11, 2019

This vial is exactly the same sort of container that is used when people give out bubbles as wedding favors. Except there’s no bubble wand inside. Obviously there’s no reason for one, because it would be sacrilegious to make bubbles with holy oil.

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Editors Ruminate: What Sustains

Editors Ruminate: What Sustains

April 09, 2019

Asking what sustains is what sustains us. These poems probe the limits of sustainability in all its ecological, musical, labor-intensive, and emotional forms. The hope for this issue, then, is that it might sustain you too.

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Blessings

Blessings

April 04, 2019

I know blessing and prayer and words and ritual and body and grace and anguish and contentment and supplication. I suspect they are not one thing, but as I travel through them I cannot find their edges...

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Hope's Fragile Wings

Hope's Fragile Wings

April 02, 2019

It’s been over a year since the Parkland, Florida shootings at Marjory Stoneman Douglas High School and over a year after the massacre in Las Vegas. It’s almost three years after Orlando, almost four years after Charleston, and six years, three months after Sandy Hook...We must seek light and joy again and we must do it with all our heart and soul because what is the alternative? Darkness.

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Song of a Captive Bird: A Review

Song of a Captive Bird: A Review

March 28, 2019

Forugh says: “Writing had cost me so much, but it was also the thing that saved me, that allowed me to live. I wasn’t the woman I wanted to be yet, but I was beginning to resemble her now.”

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SEEN AND UNSEEN

SEEN AND UNSEEN

March 27, 2019

Jennifer Cronin's visual art "Seen and Unseen" won first place in our 2019 Kalos Visual Art Prize and was selected by final juror Betty Spackman. It appears in Issue No. 50: What Sustains.

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Love Languages

Love Languages

March 26, 2019

The ocean may try to kill me, but until it actually succeeds, it’s a give and take relationship—harmonious. It takes my false sense of comfort and security and gives me the gratitude of being alive. Writing may not be able to kill me, but I’m beginning to think it’s controlling me in other ways. 

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On the Search for What Matters

On the Search for What Matters

March 19, 2019

For the last six months I have been navigating this wall of hurt and pain and sadness and existential crisis. What matters? What really matters? Each thing that crops up in a day I weigh against all the other stresses. There is too much of it.

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Riding the Waves of the Moment

Riding the Waves of the Moment

March 14, 2019

At moments, I feel I’m like the rain, drowning in ceaseless sadness. Other times, I feel as if I’m a cardboard figure moving in a cardboard world. Sometimes, I feel like the indignant ocean wanting to lash out at Joe for leaving me.

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Descendants

Descendants

March 13, 2019

Emily Stoddard's poem "Descendants" appears in Issue No. 50: What Sustains.

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Poem in Which Jesus Christ Sprains His Knee Fishing in Bethsaida

Poem in Which Jesus Christ Sprains His Knee Fishing in Bethsaida

March 12, 2019

He twists it good, too. He wasn’t paying sharp attention to the angle of his foot / As he pulled the boat to shore. He pins his foot beneath the hull, moves his /Hips the wrong way, the knee slips. Down he goes...

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Roof Clearing

Roof Clearing

March 07, 2019

Choreographed like a dance, pairs of officers asked each protester to leave, recorded their refusal, helped them stand, cuffed their hands behind their backs, and walked them to the waiting vans. Reverend Allison, third from the last to be arrested, chatted with those seated next to her, at times laughing as if they were waiting for an outdoor summer performance to begin.

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“Love of the Thing Sung and Not of the Singing:” On Ambition

“Love of the Thing Sung and Not of the Singing:” On Ambition

March 05, 2019

For everything I’ve accomplished in life, for every small victory, I find myself continually pushing myself to do better. That insatiable, ambitious ego within me—something so many writers have at their core—demands results, and quickly.

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To Remake the World: A Review of Worthy: Finding Yourself in a World Expecting Someone Else

To Remake the World: A Review of Worthy: Finding Yourself in a World Expecting Someone Else

February 28, 2019

In Worthy: Finding Yourself in a World Expecting Someone Else...Mock explores gender equality, singleness, body image, and other cultural expectations that manifest inequity, courageously advocating for a world that embraces all people...Worthy...call[s] upon Christians to “remake the church from within..."

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Hyssop and Cedarwood

Hyssop and Cedarwood

February 26, 2019

My dress with the muddy hem is in the laundry and a garbage can full of empty bottles is still in the backyard. I’m happy I didn’t do a face plant and join what must be thousands of wedding mishaps on YouTube.

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for the love of lowly things (for mary)

for the love of lowly things (for mary)

February 21, 2019

 I knew Mary Oliver's work well enough to mourn her, to recall the way some poems snag you with their fishhook beauty and won’t let you go until you have reckoned with them. Perhaps most of all, the sacred imperative to give your whole self to a place and time—the endless and proper work of paying attention.

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Creative Risks

Creative Risks

February 14, 2019

It's scary to take creative risks, but I believe these risks help remind us to play and to stay vulnerable, nimble, and curious in our work. 

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I'll Leave the Light on for You

I'll Leave the Light on for You

February 12, 2019

I have lived a long life in a world too few would recognize now. I reckon, by today’s standards, it was “old fashioned.” Simplistic? We managed to live with an ingrained sense of simplicity, of sufficiency. Our lives defied any particular sort of accumulation.

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Waiting in Liminal Space

Waiting in Liminal Space

February 07, 2019

There have been times where liminal space became more like a burial shroud than a cocoon. I stayed in a relationship, friendship, or in bad habits, waiting in this space for as long as I could, never pushing forward, until I grew used to my surroundings in languish. Even in its awkwardness, there is a sacredness in liminal space.

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Forgiveness Beyond Herself

Forgiveness Beyond Herself

January 31, 2019

Daily we pilgrimage to the saints' seemingly split facades: we interact—in families and communities, in cyberspace and private thoughts—and if we realize where we’re standing when approach their unhinged thresholds, we take off our shoes, bow, and offer puja.

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50 Hours of Ruminate Happenings

50 Hours of Ruminate Happenings

January 30, 2019

Last April, as I was sitting in a beautiful chapel at Calvin College listening to Marie Howe and Pádraig Ó Tuama discuss the power of poetry, Marie Howe described an event she helped plan and host called The Poet Is In. Poets set up tables with typewriters in Grand Central Station and invited the public to come and have a poem written for them, "with them," as she said.

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Sacred Spaces II

Sacred Spaces II

January 24, 2019

We are scarred and sometimes scared. But together, we bring fears into the light and imagine that God is the sea anyways, so if we fall, if we drift off, if the boat sinks or overturns or we find there was never a boat at all, it will be into holy water; we will fall into God.

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