Broken

Broken

November 12, 2019

My sick body is still good. She is still me. She is still wise and strong. My female body—to which others believe they are entitled—is still my home. She is still my power. Our stressed and strained bodies are waiting for us to return to them.

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Life, abundantly: on everyday Easters, resurrection, and time travel

Life, abundantly: on everyday Easters, resurrection, and time travel

July 25, 2019

Octavia Butler said God is Change. She also said our destiny is to take root among the stars. Did she know back then that we are rooted in the stars at a molecular level, made up of remnants of explosions at the universe’s birth?

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Every Moment Grace to Me

Every Moment Grace to Me

January 15, 2019

The medicine that saved my life was no longer saving me, and so the darkness came. The summer passed. Now I am in the in-between...I am in the not-knowing.

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Faith and Femininity

Faith and Femininity

December 13, 2018

When I watched my ponytail fall to the floor, I was surprised by the lurch in my stomach. The definite markings of my femininity would soon be swept into the forest, leaving uncertainty: How would I embody femininity now that I had chosen to withdraw from traditional feminine expectations? 

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Rebuilding My Life: Making Sense of Burnout and Depression

Rebuilding My Life: Making Sense of Burnout and Depression

November 29, 2018

After 14 years of teaching, I finally decided that it was time for me to leave the profession. A few days after I handed in my resignation, I broke down. I didn't return to work again. Since then, I have been trying to function daily with a body and mind that is challenged by limitations, pain, and struggle.

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For the Faint of Heart

For the Faint of Heart

November 13, 2018

The light that emanates from the heart is not likened to the breath of ripe plums or the fire of life. The heart’s job is steady, caged and bloody. To see the heart’s work, one must hold an elite membership, must be willing to cut and pull back the flesh.

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How to Love Your Ugly Feet

How to Love Your Ugly Feet

November 06, 2018

Against your white wood ceiling, your feet and ankles framed in the dark denim, there’s a little beauty. This is strange because your feet are the last thing on your body you’d acknowledge as beautiful....they tell you, We carry you. We will keep carrying you.

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Sacred Spaces

Sacred Spaces

August 30, 2018

Uncertainty remains. My womb may or may not be empty. I think of all the women who’ve sat on the toilet over the years, imagining that sacred space inside of them. Hoping one way. Hoping another.

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To Stop and Consider What it Means

To Stop and Consider What it Means

May 08, 2018

Someone once told me that when you bite your nails, it means something. It means something bad. That every time you stick your fingers in your mouth, you’re not just enjoying the chewiness of your flesh, the clean peel of the skin, the crisp cut of your nail that clicks down with your teeth. 

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It Is This by Craig Reinbold

It Is This by Craig Reinbold

February 14, 2018

I would charge that tree at sixty miles per hour, the following curve rated for thirty-five. Headed home after school, in the after-practice gloam, in the dark after work—to turn, or not to turn? That was the question. It was an option. Something to consider. I suspect most of us don’t think of this as a decision, per se, but it is. Every day, we decide, even if for most of us the answer has become reflex.

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The Blessing and Burden of Knowledge

The Blessing and Burden of Knowledge

February 13, 2018

Do I enjoy having this knowledge about myself? The knowledge that I have anxiety and another bout of depression could be waiting a few months down the road? No, I can’t say that I do....However, knowing that I will eventually have a good day and I will come out of my depression has steadied me.

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You Must Change Your Life

You Must Change Your Life

January 16, 2018

 I must change my life, I thought. Is this what Rilke meant? That I should “get healthy?” I should eat better, drink better? I jumped to this conclusion in the aisle at my grocery store.

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Chronic Illness: The Power of Silence

Chronic Illness: The Power of Silence

December 19, 2017

For the next several months I watched my own silence as though I had no power over it. I didn’t tell my boyfriend, though it might have been relevant to our conversations about getting married. I didn’t tell my mother back home, or anyone I worked with. I cut my foot fetching water, bled on the front steps, and said nothing to my sisters as they helped me clean it up.

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The Physicality of Things

The Physicality of Things

May 23, 2017

I’ve spent much of my adulthood astonished by what I was supposed to learn in school but didn’t or forgot. The earth’s mantle, stardust and the miraculous heart, which pumps two thousand gallons of blood every day. Did God make me forgetful of the body and the earth or is forgetting my sin, a feature of the fall?

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The Anatomy of Aging (or, The Best Year Ever!)

The Anatomy of Aging (or, The Best Year Ever!)

February 14, 2017

In about eight months, I’ll turn fifty. I didn’t think it bothered me all that much. Aging and the ascending number on the pull-down menus were just a nuisance more than anything else but this past year I’ve been noticing the ticking clock, the changing calendar.

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Embracing the Body and What the Body Knows

Embracing the Body and What the Body Knows

December 18, 2016

ALL THAT HE HAD MADE (all) was very good. These are not complicated words, and yet for many centuries, it seems, we have failed to receive them. Cautioned by New Testament exhortations, we’ve assumed the Genesis writer’s generosity and inclusion of every part of creation to be poetic device, quietly maintaining that...

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Notes from the Autism Spectrum, Part I: Alienation and Symbol

Notes from the Autism Spectrum, Part I: Alienation and Symbol

June 16, 2016

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Notes from the Spectrum, Part IV: Q & A

Notes from the Spectrum, Part IV: Q & A

May 12, 2016

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La Via Dolorosa: Reflections on the Host

La Via Dolorosa: Reflections on the Host

March 26, 2016

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Notes from the Spectrum, Part III: Speaking the Words

Notes from the Spectrum, Part III: Speaking the Words

January 22, 2016

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Writing, Hiking, Climbing, Descending

Writing, Hiking, Climbing, Descending

December 01, 2015

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Ghost Glass or, 3 Lessons I’ve Learned Since the Accident

Ghost Glass or, 3 Lessons I’ve Learned Since the Accident

November 24, 2015

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Notes from the Spectrum, Part II: Riding While Autistic

Notes from the Spectrum, Part II: Riding While Autistic

November 14, 2015

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5 Ruminate Blog Posts to Revisit this Summer

5 Ruminate Blog Posts to Revisit this Summer

July 21, 2015

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Word Flesh: Writing and Healing

Word Flesh: Writing and Healing

April 30, 2015

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Rule #1: Never Swim Alone

Rule #1: Never Swim Alone

February 17, 2015

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Finding Rest: Did You Make a Wish?

Finding Rest: Did You Make a Wish?

January 08, 2015

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An Apology and an Affirmation; or, In Praise of Yoga Pants

An Apology and an Affirmation; or, In Praise of Yoga Pants

October 18, 2014

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On Being Strangers with Your Spouse

On Being Strangers with Your Spouse

August 16, 2014

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Cry Together

Cry Together

August 29, 2013

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Accidental Voyeur

Accidental Voyeur

August 01, 2013

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Works with Soul: Gary Glazner & the Alzheimer's Poetry Project

Works with Soul: Gary Glazner & the Alzheimer's Poetry Project

March 10, 2011

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Nudity in Art

January 14, 2010

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